DIEGO VALLE

Setting a goal is nothing complex. Achieving it is a matter of persistence, of knowing where you want to be and how you are going to get there. I once read if you set your mind to something, the whole world would conspire for you to get it. Thousands of times I have proved this line true.

The process may be pleasant, like sex; painful, like tattoos and piercings; sometimes even excruciatingly confusing, like love; but all in all, are these situations which make us feel. And feeling is what keeps us alive.

Living is complex. Is a combination of seconds spent through different experiences and a sequence of minutes and days you may remember forever or may wish you could forget. You see, the complexity of having developed such a big mass of grey matter through evolution has brought us to the grade of complexity where life is not basic. Life is complex. We think we live for something but is that something really worth living for? We tell ourselves it is for our own good. Otherwise, it would stop being worth living.

It’s been 7 years approximately from the moment I realized I would spend the rest of my life through chords and sounds, rhymes and beats. Through out such journey there has been many changes. From a rough close-minded punk-rock-ish kid to the stopped-at-the-mall-for-pictures rock-star-like to the behind-the-scenes sort-of-guy that lately seems to be the one who has taken over my shoes. Yes, it’s been that much. The point of this paragraph? Goals have been achieved.

But so much “success” in so many fields has lately become a realization of something I’ve been hiding. I’m afraid of my social self. so I put myself in a podium where I can be seen and I can be looked up to, but never approached. I suck at one-on-one interaction. I have no idea of how (and somehow very little desire as well) to improve this side of me. I am that guy, the quiet one, the awkward silenced dude who you feel weird around and never get his commentary about whatever the topic is.

A light at the end of the tunnel has been these past weeks, probably actually a couple of months. I move slow into whatever I move into. And somehow my slow-motion action has been not considered that slow at all. Apparently. Apparently this is going somewhere and it’s somewhere I’m looking forward to be, no matter how long it takes. No matter where it gets, no matter how it goes, I like today and I’ve been liking everyday.

Towards the end and quoting wise words from Set Your Goals’ first full-lenght opening song: “life is about doing the process and not the result”. Don’t lose your mind on getting “there” and instead, enjoy every second of it. Because if you’re smiling every five seconds, you might already be there.